RighttotheCore

she was the girl with dark hair, and light eyes i was the girl with fire hair, and lizard eyes i saw myself as scales of flaking happiness as she saw me as everything but when i looked at her i felt lighter, almost as if i had shedded off the dark parts of myself only to be left with this feeling of optimism

the city is people packed onto streets and jammed tight into yellow taxi cars places to be, things to see you can get lost in a place like that. no one notices the desperation when you cry on 6th street by a lamp post that no longer lights up when the night falls heavy. no one notices the bruises on your heart that make it hard to move once more. you can wither away into loneliness's' grip and never escape the feeling that you just don't matter to anyone. you're the ashtray sitting on the fire escape, full of leftovers but nothing whole. more than likely, you'll look up and scream to the heavens hoping that someone or something scream

i'm like the cold cup of hot coffee and he is the warmest cup of joe sip me once, sip me twice sip him once and you'll leave me on the counter to just get even colder

silly me for thinking that my towers wouldn't fall, for thinking that i could stand tall. i'm not meant to be strong, so move along - find someone new who will be better for you. i am not worth the fight, because nothing in my head will ever be right. i am sick

 dear boy, it's been 367 days since you ran in front of that grocery store truck and crushed your skull. i said goodbye to you two days ago. it was supposed to make me feel better; letting you go and all. but, in reality it left a gaping hole inside my chest. come back and fix it? sincerely, your friend.

i never lived to have stories.

 i'm just not skinny enough.

 soak me in poison and hang me out to dry, pick me up and when you reach the moon, drop me so i fall to the earth like a meteorite. call me beautiful and i'll smile as you pull my rib cage apart. rip my heart out and bury it somewhere in the earth. i'll tell you i love you and you'll laugh and watch me fall apart to pieces of sharp window glass.